We all have been hearing it since forever that saying sorry won’t harm much. Neither will it make you look little nor will it make you bigger. But yes, it’ll surely let the other one witness your sincerity, maturity and generosity.
I, on the other hand have a very bad-tempered mind and a pro-active sense which makes me think that saying sorry will harm my ego and destroy my “big big attitude” in front of all. But, excuse-me? I am sure it’s not just my psychology, but in fact everyone of us’ mind is De-bugged. All the vulnerable teenagers like me think of themselves as very high and they too think that they can’t ever be wrong, and the opposite one is at fault ALWAYS.
But, as we grow up, as the days pass; we everyday feel that we perceived something new, something productive, something that was wrong and shouldn’t be done. In short, we are growing and breaking and then again molding then again shaping ourselves. This is the very process of our lives. And we have accepted it.
Sometimes, not even realizing we make certain mistakes that were forbidden for us forever. Nevertheless, we strike the hurdle. But to re-do it is the biggest sin of all. Also then we do it. Thankfully they forgive us and we forget them again.
I, very honestly say that there is no day when I’ve not made a mistake, not broken a heart, not hurt a being, not disregarded my friend. But every other day they forgive me, but till when? Some day or the other their patience will also melt, one day the limits will be crossed.
And that’s when I thought I should apologize. Sometimes in life some incidents happen which makes you ponder over for days, which makes you feel abandoned, which makes you sense you could have even lost the loved one, which scares you from inside.
I have always been a person of my own kind, never cared much, never thought much. Yes, I never think before speaking. People point that out more so often, and all the same I’m trying to change. Because they say “change is good” and “to dare is to err”.
So, here I go.
To every single being in my life who have been wounded by me intentionally or unintentionally; to those who have received unconditional pain because of me; to those who have suffered because of me.